

But people assumed that I was just a kid being silly, and no one really noticed that there was something off about me until I was like 13 or 14, when people thought that I would be more able to sit still and behave and not be so strange, and it didn’t stop.

And I just wouldn’t stop and drove everyone mental with it. It was actually before I said “mamma” or “dadda” - I said “Michael Shoe-Smacker,” which is insane. So, I asked my mom about it, and she said that my first word was “Michael Shoe-Smacker.” And, um, early in the streams, people were like, “What was your first tic?” And I was like, “Michael Shoe-Smacker.” I just didn’t know when that started, and I assumed it must have been when I was like three or four, but it turns out, it was much earlier than that. I first started getting tics when I was really young. Her comments have been left unedited, and for clarity, instances of verbal tics have been left intact, but placed in square brackets. To learn more about Tourette’s and the difficulties that people with this oft-embarrassing, debilitating syndrome face - particularly in the hypersensitive world of streaming and social media - Anita and I hopped on Discord so she could break it all down. It never used to be a tic before twitch, but chat has been intentionally triggering it. I'm trying my best in this situation but honestly it's likely to happen again, the more people pressure me not to say it, the more my condition latches on to the phrase. This is daily life for Anita, who constantly finds herself explaining her syndrome and her inability, at times, to control what she says - and even defending her career as a streamer - to thousands and thousands of onlookers. It’s important to know that these behaviors aren’t willful.”

Innate in the condition is the inability to restrain oneself, which can cause unintentional departure from social conventions. The complexities of this disorder can be difficult to understand. “For those living with Tourette Syndrome, that is reality. “Imagine your mind betrays you each day by revealing uncontrollable thoughts, facilitating distracting physical movements and inappropriate sounds to an audience you do not want,” says Amanda Talty, the president and CEO of Tourette Association of America. She wasnt espousing hatred you dense fool. Imagine being so shitty you try to use your audience of 53k to cancel a streamer cuz she said a naughty word due to Tourettes. Anita, however, had absolutely no control over the words that departed her mouth on that evening: Not only does she have Tourette’s Syndrome, she’s one of only 10 percent of people with Tourette’s who suffer specifically from coprolalia - that is, uncontrollable swearing - and what she said was a tic. The internet almost immediately exploded with rage, with people calling for her to be banned from the platform and, for all intents and purposes, cancelled altogether. To get the most from this site, please enable JavaScript.On a seemingly ordinary evening in early December, renowned streamer Sweet Anita - who has more than 650,000 followers on Twitch and 400,000 subscribers on YouTube - was live-streaming when she blurted out a bombshell: “Kill all Jews.”

In mid-2019, Anita began experiencing long-term harassment and abuse from an unidentified stalker. She began streaming on Twitch in 2018 and became known for her profanity-laden and racist outbursts. She was diagnosed with Tourette's syndrome at the age of 24.
